My pain is the hidden side of my philosophy, its mute sister. In the same way, Montaigne's statement "To phi- losophize is to learn how to die" is inconceivable without the melancholy combination of sorrow and hatred-which came to a head in Heidegger' s care and the disclosure of our "being-for-death." Without a bent for melancholia there is no psyche, only a transition to action or play.